I turned twenty-four last January 24, 2014 and still lost to nowhere and moving my life to a places I don’t know where it will be going to lead me. I’m getting age but I don’t know if I am getting the maturity of my age level. I’m feeling lost and I don’t know if I am at the right age to make decisions on my own. I can say that at my age I am still afraid to move forward and take steps to the path that I wanted.
I don’t know if I will be getting stronger for the future years of my life and I am confused still of what do I want to do. I am lost in the battle of the world. I feel like I am journeying alone. I can’t help but to think that this battle of mind is for me alone. I feel that when I fell nobody will be there to fetch me up and nobody at my back to watch me and help me to get on track. I feel that if I stumble I will get up alone. and I am afraid I am into that.
I don’t like to celebrate my birthday and my coming birthdays to come. I would rather forget it that to celebrate it that is why I don’t tell to anyone my birthday. I don’t like being greeted and being remembered I hate the feeling. I wound rather be alone on my birthdays. I don’t like that feeling when they greet me. I don’t like people coming around and share their greetings.
Anyway, the most important greeting I have received came from my family. I was happy that they did not forget my birthday and they always will.
I was expecting from someone but it only led me to disappointment. I know I was never a part of her life. I would rather be forgotten.